van × year is #51 in Interior Design Magazine’s 100 Big Ideas Issue!
van × year
Kyle Bowman (Director/D.O.P./Editor)
Natasha Wheatley (Producer/Writer)
Brandy Byhoffer (Second Unit)
Gemma Holdway (Writer/P.A.)
Jean Brazeau (Sound Mixing)
Music: “This Thirsty Fountain” by The Parish of Little Clifton
Moving things around is always a delicate puzzle. New blanket for my bed.
I arrived home from the island this afternoon feeling wistful and half-asleep. The sun, ready to set, left warm light filtering through the fence, making a glowing pattern on the van door. This week has been full: heady, sweet, new.
Listening to Romance of the Telescope by Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark. Over and over. Maybe feeling a little unsettled being back in the van’s solitude. Reading early creation stories from a text on Jewish mysticism, Antwerp by Roberto Bolaño and The Gospel According to Christ by Jose Saramago. Drinking mineral water and organizing my dirty laundry.
I’ve kind of been in a slump lately. It’s been hard to keep routines with the wet weather and feeling confined. I’m trying to stay positive, stay thankful. Last week I learned about the Jesuit tradition of the Examen. The Examen is a daily meditation during which one reviews (with gratitude) the day that has just passed, assesses areas of discomfort and looks hopefully toward the next day. I’m working on my own version of this – looking at my days with gratitude, looking to the next day with hope, anticipation and a feeling of possibility. I wanted a simpler life – living in a van is a step toward this.
Today was a good day. My sister Sarah and her husband Rodney came to eat and visit in the van. The intimacy of sitting together on the bed in the low light reminds me of scenes from my childhood – a kind of closeness and familiarity that, until now, has been lacking from my adult life.
Today I took the bed frame out. I felt a little like I was living in two vertical feet. Now the mattress is on the floor. I’ve been sitting on the bed reading tonight (The Lake), listening to loud music.